God Needed Them More

by Anonymous
(Cleveland, Ohio)

About four years ago, I found out that I was pregnant. My husband and I were really excited because we had been trying to have a baby for two years prior to that. Everything seemed to be going well and I had my sonogram where the doctor told me that we would be having twins.

It was not until my next sonogram that the doctor noticed something was wrong. I had never even given thought to something being wrong, but he told my husband and I that the twins were sharing the same placenta and there was no barrier between the two babies which would cause a very high risk pregnancy.

Immediately after that, I was put on bed rest and told to stop working and to make my trips up and down the stairs very minimal. On top of this, I have diabetes and they were afraid the twins would get it. They sent me to a high risk doctor at the Cleveland Clinic and he advised us of the risks of mortality of the twins. I saw several doctors just to get their opinions and all had the same things to say. I had to stop taking blood thinning medication that I had been taking before I got pregnant, so with the added complications, it would be very difficult to carry the twins.

We found out that they were boys so my husband and I decided to name the babies. I am a big fan of a soap opera so we chose names from the show, Nash and Brennan, for the boys. It made it more real and made me feel more connected to the boys.

I saw many doctors and there was a lot of talk about inducing labor once the boys were big enough to be able to survive outside of the womb because they would have a better chance at living a full life that way.

What was found was that one of the babies had a condition called CDH, Congenital Diaphragmatic Hernia, which would be an issue itself. My husband and I prayed and waited, hoping things would turn out well.

Sadly, at seven months, the umbilical cord got tangled and got a knot in it, cutting off the supply to the babies and Nash and Brennan passed away. It was a very sad day, but we did all that we could do to try and save the babies. God must have needed them home more than we did.