God Has a Sense of Humor

by Erin
(Texas)

I am 21 weeks and getting bigger by the minute. This is my second pregnancy and, personally, pregnancy hates me!! With my first son I threw up constantly. Ugh, it was something to go through.

I begged my doctor to induce me and finally he did. And, when I held my son, it was love at first sight. He cried when I held him in my room later that night and something just was not right so I told the nurse and he was wheeled to the nursery. When I woke up the next morning a doctor sat in the chair and told me my son was in nicu. I was crushed.

I felt so helpless and guilty like I should have known, I should have done something. He had strep group b in his blood and was having breathing problems so he was intubated and had a feeding tube and all of these wires I couldn't hold him...I cried myself to sleep (when I did sleep) and prayed for better.

After 3 weeks he came home and I told myself I would not have any more kids because of this incident. Needless to say, God has a very funny sense of humor and 4 months later I found out I was pregnant again.

My initial reaction worried me. I was angry sad and depressed. I just had a baby I wasnt ready for another. My boyfriend and I were already struggling financially. I was horribly sick and I had to go to the ER 3 times for fluids and meds.

I had my first ultrasound at 8 weeks in the ER to make sure everything was ok because I had been bleeding enough for a pad and the heartbeat was good and even saw my little nugget on the screen.

I had my next ultrasound at 18 weeks. I was excited to see what I was having so maybe I could feel connected to my baby. My mom and younger brother went and we sat in the dark room while the lady put the goo on my belly. She started moving the thing on my tummy and stared at the screen. My heart was already in my throat because I thought something was wrong. She looked at me, cleared her throat and said "ummm do multiples run in your family"?..my mom said, "yes..why?!" She said, "theres 2 in there. You're having twins!"

I couldnt breathe. I was like what? Are you sure? She said yes. They are fraternal one is a boy and one is a girl. I was in shock the rest of the week. Twins?!?! Not one but TWO.

I am 21 weeks now and I still have my omg moments but I am excited and I try not to worry as much. I wouldn't change it for the world. I do know that my family is complete now so I am definately done being pregnant!! God sure does have a sense of humor.